Peanut Butter Wafers with a Side of Inspiration

So here I am, sitting in a small room surrounded by windows at 10 o'clock at night with a laptop in my grasp, just thinking of what I could possibly blog about. Well, nothing was coming to mind, so of course I would get up to get myself a snack and put some music on, which ended up being instrumental music inspired by nature (a.k.a. soundscapes). While eating the peanut-buttery treat to the sound of "Clouds," I finally felt motivated enough to start writting, not totally sure where it would take me. But that's not really the point is it? I'm not a huge planner, I usually just frustrate myself in the process and give up if nothing comes to mind quick enough. This quality of me is extremely evident when it comes to my artwork. The only pieces that I have come to enjoy the most and actually still like to admire are the ones that I had spontaneously picked up a paintbrush and started putting some colors down, not worrying about the ending product in the least. That's how I like to work, in most situations at least. I feel it's easier that way, leaves more room for creation and less room for stress. Oh stress. My mom always tells me that stress isn't real and that our minds create it, which makes sense unless you also believe the concept that everyone has their own reality. If that's your stance, then you would have to admit that if someone created stress for themselves, then it would be real to them. I believe that stress doesn't have to occur if you have the right mindset, but I also believe that it exists. Wow, it's crazy the effect classical music can have on me. Just a little bit ago I was kind of in a grumpy mood, for no reason of course (don't you love that?), and in no mood to reflect on random ideas like this. I should listen to it more often, then maybe I won't be so moody all the time. Though when you have 7 siblings plus parents to deal with everyday, each one pulling on a different nerve than the other, music might not do the trick all the time. And playing less video games would be helpful too. I've been into these games called Dragon Age and Fable II lately (thanks to my older brother, the ultimate gamer) and I've noticed that being on them for too many hours makes me the most cranky grump, and once I'm in that mood it's hard to change it. Perhaps simply timing myself on it would keep me from playing all day, but I like being in a game too much sometimes. It's an addiction I believe my whole family suffers from (except my mom, she's somehow immune). But anyway, it's about bedtime for me (though it might seem weird for a teenager to go to bed at 11 during the summer, that's one reason why I'm not normal). I'll write again sometime and hopefully reading this wasn't too boring, not that I really care, this blog is more for me than it is for you. Have a great night, morning, whatever!